Pangs

I like to be perceived as having my shit together, however this can be problematic being an alcoholic. The veneer of normality creates a buffer zone, a no man’s land of threat, wonder and hope. In sobriety I have acquired the successes or trappings of life depending on how you see it, and yet IContinue reading “Pangs”

Start the Day Again

Sat in front of a laptop stressed, trying to multitask between emails, telephone calls and project tasks it dawned on me; I don’t like the way my day is going so I’m going to start it again. I relied heavily on alcohol as a reward, a crutch and a friend that never disappointed me. TheContinue reading “Start the Day Again”

Dual Forces

A ferocious maniac with no sense of benevolence or empathy for others. The terror within manifests as anger erupting into uncontrollable rage and violence. Frustrated sadness of something caught in a trap. Excruciating existence alleviated by gnarled arguments won through twisted logic and delusional core beliefs of alcohol being a benign presence. A kind soothsayerContinue reading “Dual Forces”