Abstinence

I’ve been resenting my inability to drink like a gentleman. There’s never going to be a time when I can consume alcohol safely. The residual emotions are lingering and I feel like they’re seeping out of the cracks. Weakened fault lines causing subconscious quakes, shuddering my sense of confidence, self worth and identity. Hemingway saidContinue reading “Abstinence”

Pangs

I like to be perceived as having my shit together, however this can be problematic being an alcoholic. The veneer of normality creates a buffer zone, a no man’s land of threat, wonder and hope. In sobriety I have acquired the successes or trappings of life depending on how you see it, and yet IContinue reading “Pangs”

Start the Day Again

Sat in front of a laptop stressed, trying to multitask between emails, telephone calls and project tasks it dawned on me; I don’t like the way my day is going so I’m going to start it again. I relied heavily on alcohol as a reward, a crutch and a friend that never disappointed me. TheContinue reading “Start the Day Again”