Why? What? How?

I used to think it was the evil that kept some of my extended family members alive for so long. Ignorance can keep an individual sustained for a lifetime. However, ignorance didn’t serve me well. What is life if it is not being surrounded by love and the warmth of relationships and learning how weContinue reading “Why? What? How?”

Recovery Resilience

In the midst of a second wave of coronavirus, I’m an alcoholic struggling with the surge of emotions caused by isolation and nostalgia for a time free from fear. To clarify I mean external fear i.e. socially distancing, wearing masks, not going to public events, thinking twice about venturing out for anything not deemed absolutelyContinue reading “Recovery Resilience”

Abstinence

I’ve been resenting my inability to drink like a gentleman. There’s never going to be a time when I can consume alcohol safely. The residual emotions are lingering and I feel like they’re seeping out of the cracks. Weakened fault lines causing subconscious quakes, shuddering my sense of confidence, self worth and identity. Hemingway saidContinue reading “Abstinence”