Fate or Fortune

It’s mysterious to me how I discovered the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. Nobody in my immediate family is in the Fellowship. I was given a Big Book by an Aunty some years ago, she obviously saw the traits of active alcoholism raging in me. The book remained on the window sill gathering dust, full ofContinue reading “Fate or Fortune”

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Alcohol was always a readily available option for me. A substance that initially was shrouded in an adult veil, obscure and intriguing to me in my early teens. Yearning to feel different from the inexplicable emptiness, unhappiness and fear, I was immediately flirtatious with the intoxicating affects of drinking alcohol. I recall finding a bottleContinue reading “– Progressive +”

Pangs

I like to be perceived as having my shit together, however this can be problematic being an alcoholic. The veneer of normality creates a buffer zone, a no man’s land of threat, wonder and hope. In sobriety I have acquired the successes or trappings of life depending on how you see it, and yet IContinue reading “Pangs”