Procrastination

Delaying something can have various consequences. A deadline in work is meaningless a week later however putting off a trip, visiting a person, a place could cause regret and sadness later on. Live in the moment with an attitude of gratitude is difficult for me to practice when fear encroaches, develops and consumes. The fearContinue reading “Procrastination”

Abstinence

I’ve been resenting my inability to drink like a gentleman. There’s never going to be a time when I can consume alcohol safely. The residual emotions are lingering and I feel like they’re seeping out of the cracks. Weakened fault lines causing subconscious quakes, shuddering my sense of confidence, self worth and identity. Hemingway saidContinue reading “Abstinence”

Pangs

I like to be perceived as having my shit together, however this can be problematic being an alcoholic. The veneer of normality creates a buffer zone, a no man’s land of threat, wonder and hope. In sobriety I have acquired the successes or trappings of life depending on how you see it, and yet IContinue reading “Pangs”